Sigh....

Well today was tango day, and I feel really mad at myself for not being confident enough. Every little thing I do, I hesitate because I am afraid that I am doing it wrong or I think that my partner gets annoyed by what I do. I just don't know how to boost my confidence in tango and in life.

If I was confidence enough then I would be happier with my life and the things I choose to do.
ARGGGG, I have already messed my life up and I could've done something that would make me happy but I decided not to do it and now I freeking regret that decision. I think it might be a regret for life and also a lesson. Well I guess for tango I can just practice more at home but my life problem I'll just try my best to solve it.

Anyways today (4.20.09) was a hot day and I was pretty much happy the whole day other than the confidence thing. I actually think speech helps with me with talking to people. I started talking to my partners today even though I don't know them. Maybe the shy stage of my life has passed by.

Yet still my goal:
Smile more even when the situation is not good because smiles bring joy to not just yourself but also others.